Three years ago I was a senior in high school. Two seconds later I became a wife and a mom and found myself staring the Army straight in the face while it growled "are you ready for this little girl?" It has been intense and so, so fast.
I wonder - who am I? A stay at home mama? A full time wife? A single mother? (Thanks, deployment.) I move back to my parents and hey look, I'm a high school senior again! All the kids my age are about to graduate college working towards a career, so there's pressure to turn my hobby into a business. I'm packing and unpacking and packing and unpacking and where is home again?
There's a possibility I'm experiencing some identity confusion. It shows here. I am tired of the facade. Tired of posting cute photos instead of being honest. I haven't known what to say so I won't visit for weeks at a time. When I do, I see this mass quantity of bloggers hiding behind carefully chosen words and their own cute photos. Is it real? Because that's what I need right now.
I wonder - who am I? A stay at home mama? A full time wife? A single mother? (Thanks, deployment.) I move back to my parents and hey look, I'm a high school senior again! All the kids my age are about to graduate college working towards a career, so there's pressure to turn my hobby into a business. I'm packing and unpacking and packing and unpacking and where is home again?
There's a possibility I'm experiencing some identity confusion. It shows here. I am tired of the facade. Tired of posting cute photos instead of being honest. I haven't known what to say so I won't visit for weeks at a time. When I do, I see this mass quantity of bloggers hiding behind carefully chosen words and their own cute photos. Is it real? Because that's what I need right now.
5 Comments:
I for one found your last post refreshing...and this one too. You see, I appreciate and value utter honesty. Sometimes honesty is raw....but you know what....it's REAL! You write whatever is on YOUR heart! ISn't this blog really for you anyway????
Write what you want. I feel like a lot of the people that "poop rainbows" on their blog are probably the most unhappy.
I don't sugar coat anything.
i don't have any super wise magical words of encouragement. but i just wanted you to know that i think you're pretty awesome, and i said a prayer for you when i read this.
<3
*hugs*
I like that your being real and sharing how you really feel. :)
this is your blog and you should feel comfy sharing whatever you want.
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